‘Body Confidence’

If you follow my Instagram you know I went to Turkey last month. It was my first holiday since I had my girls and dun dun duuuun my post-babies’ body. It’s easy to forget about the changes when you’re covering it up with maternity clothes or the few items I have had to purchase because nothing else fits.

I will admit while sitting on my sofa with my babies I would scroll through old holiday pictures with my slimmer frame which I never had to do much for. Even when I started ‘filling out’ once I hit 25 I wasn’t uber concerned. I did train a little because I wanted a four pack but never stuck at it.

So now my clothes actually don’t fit and I had to buy my first all in one swimsuit since childhood. Once I got boobs, it was bikinis and I never looked back till now. On my holiday, I felt mumsy with my all in one swimsuit and my FUPA (Beyoncé said it so can I). I didn’t like any pictures of me in my swimsuit which is a first. There is nowhere to hide my new found lady lumps.

On Instagram I don’t feel like I fit in the ‘embrace and love your now changed body’ group because some days I don’t, and I really don’t appreciate the stretch marks I now have on my thighs.. Let me just make this clear I don’t hate my body to jump on an operating table but I just ain’t loving it right now. Am I the only one? So where do I sit in the world between of the sometimes overbearing LOVE YOURSELF movement and the GAINS sweat-less fitness photos in the gym changing room mirror. I don’t know, it’s something that I can honestly say I don’t think about all the time. I am mostly reminded when I have to go out and I remember that I have somewhere to go and nothing to wear. The thought of buying a whole new wardrobe is something I have no interest in doing.

Is it shallow to say I prefer and want my pre body back? It was nowhere near perfect but I appreciated it.  

So I am now working out, to get back to a UK 12 and to fit into a particular dress that I only wore once before I had my girls. It’s not a joyous occasion because I don’t enjoy working out and I know most of the work is my eating habits which have gone out the window since having the girls. But it’s got to be done and I am hoping that once I get to a certain point I may even start enjoying it.

About the author

Georgia is a mother who has decided to live out loud after motherhood took the wind out of her! From finding out she was going to be a mother of twins, then them being born at 27 weeks (two and a half months early), it was a rollercoaster but sharing the whole experience on platforms such as Make Motherhood Diverse has reminded her that she wasn’t alone despite not feeling included in the mainstream vision of motherhood.
Georgia regularly shares the realities of being a mother of twins on her Instagram page while still craving her own piece of the world. It’s a mixture of meltdowns and giggles and Black British Motherhood in all its glory.
Georgia has a background in beauty as a qualified make-up artist and eyelash technician. She ran a beauty business providing pamper treatments for private and corporate clients, and has also worked on a multitude of events including influencers book launches for Zoella and Tanya Burr, and brands such as Wilko and Pixi beauty. Despite her love for beauty, she is fully aware of the lack of diversity and poorly executed campaigns when brands want to appear diverse.

Georgia is a confident communicator and loves to chat about all things motherhood, womanhood and diversity (or the lack thereof) in the media and beauty world, all from a Black British Londoner perspective.

Feel free to contact Georgia via the contact page.

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